The Doctor's Office...

Well another month and another injection. Oh Abilify my friend! Gosh it hurt :( That was yesterday and today I am still bruised.

A new doctor and a new focus. He thought 2 books would be good for me to read. One by Jay Shetty and one by Mark Manson. It has been a long time since I have been able to read a book but I have started again recently. Learning to ignore the audible commentary is hard for me to do. I am getting there though.

Overall and in spite of the painful jab (lol) it was a positive experience for me. All additional symptoms are gone or are coming under control with the lifestyle choices I have been making. He might even tell some other patients about Noom for their weight loss journey.

My journal reflections not that I am saying I feel happy more often than not. A huge change for me. I look forward to and crave the security I have in life at the moment. I have been pondering though will the robber come past me again? No doubt I say.

The difference since June 2022 is astounding really. The obedience to routine which Sunday in church gives me is a lifesaver.

I love what God has brought into my life. I truly am finding peace!

The journey of acceptance to walk the miracle mile is a strange one at times I find.

Do you ever wonder where life is going? Where is it taking you to? I do. In truth, a lot of my time has been spent trying to figure it out. To know that I don’t have to figure it all out, or even any of it out, is a lifesaving thought.

Working on my inner narrative and mindset is a journey I am very excited about!

The Doctor asked me what caused me to have schizophrenia. He asked all of the questions that I have asked the psychiatrists. He agreed that the things that cause my anxiety are normal anxiety causing things. This was a huge relief to me actually! The feeling of being validated is tremendous and contributes in a profound way to finding and walking in peace. This is giving me the courage and strength to step out and investigate different pathways in thinking.

There is a word I am loving at the moment…..CONNECTIONS…..even spelt with an ‘X’ instead of ‘C’. When it comes to my visit to the Doctor. I wonder whether the bruised arm will be more memorable than the nice chat. Time will tell which connections will be stronger for me.

Until next time.

Blessings and love from

Rebel

The Mad Hatter’s Retreat.